Decluttering….Far More than Organizing

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I am a pack rat.

I admit it – I keep all kinds of things.  Drawings, papers, articles.  The problem is, I don’t organize it well enough it find it, and soon forget I even kept it until I start weeding things out.  So, at that point, you would think I would say, “Toni, you haven’t used this in X months/years, get rid of it,” right?  Wrong.

Nope, I refile it with better intentions of using it, reading it, writing about it, etc.  And, again, 6 months later…I run across it again.  Some would say I need a better system.  Some would be right.

Anyway, today is the day that I begin decluterring – again.  So, I’m trying to toss things I don’t need.  I’m getting better.  I think I may even be able to overcome my addiction at some point in my life!  But, it made me think of something else:

Jesus said that when we become His followers, we are no longer that which we were before, but are new creations.  So, why then, do we tend to hang on to the “stuff” of our past for so long?  Maybe for some its the pain of a divorce, or the shame of an immoral relationship…for others it could be the hurt of abuse, or the indignity of past addictions.  The truth is, no matter how early in our lives we came to Christ, we all have a past as a sinner.  And, the instant we trusted in the power of the blood of the Lamb to forgive us for those sins, we became something new, something wonderful, something Divinely inhabited by the Holy Spirit.

So, why do we allow Satan to steal our joy by holding on so closely to those things we need to toss from our lives?  I believe part of it lies in lack of forgiveness.  Jesus said we are to forgive others, and He said that if we do not forgive, He cannot forgive us.  Who are we to say, “I can’t forgive myself for _____________,” when the One who created us, says, “I freely forgive you”?  Dare we put ourselves above God and say our judgment is stronger than His?  God forbid!

I believe part of it lies also in familiarity, though.  Even though those things are something we would gladly do without, comfort sometimes makes it hard to let go.  Think about it – an old, tattered, soft, worn-out t-shirt is so comfortable.  You wouldn’t wear it in public, and its threadbare, but you keep it simply because its comfortable.  We are so afraid of getting rid of the familiar sometimes that we miss out on the Divine!  With the t-shirt – God wants to replace it with a robe of pure white!  A white that we can’t comprehend!  But, we’re content to hang on to the tattered, worn-out t-shirt with the stains all over it.

I am pleading with each one of you – get on your knees – get on your face before the Lord of the universe and ask Him to reveal anything Satan is using to rob you of your joy in salvation.  And ask Him to remove it, completely.

Most importantly:  let Him remove it.

Psalm 51:10  Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

Something funny…at least I think it is…

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I thought I would throw something on here a little different….this is something I wrote one day for fun, just to write….it describes a desk I was using at the time…and I happen to think its pretty funny stuff, but, I could be a tad bit biased.


Well, my desk leaves something to be desired, that’s for sure. It is one of those plain white particle board things that you buy at Wal-Mart then spend hours putting together. And, it was used. It was in the trailer when we got it – since I didn’t have a desk, it was better than nothing.To the left are two shelves on top of one another. The bottom area is full of saw dust (from me drilling holes to make my wires go through the back) and dust bunnies (from me not cleaning….I feed them once a day at least, just to keep them healthy with glowing bunny coats). The tower of my computer is there, carefully guarding the dust bunnies, along with a CD case which holds all my personal computer CDs. The plug in cord from a set of headphones snakes its way up to the top of my desk from my tower since I didn’t realize that no external speakers meant no sound when I bought my computer.

The top shelf holds lots of junk – packets of label paper, graph paper, photo CDs, blank CDs, and my trusty stapler. Actually, the stapler isn’t all that trusty – it never staples the left side completely. It must be in cahoots with the dust bunnies. Behind the stapler and blank CDs are three software programs the girls got for Christmas – Alex has tried to play hers once, but they keep shutting off in the middle of the game, so I assume that the dust bunnies have worked up some master plan to crash my system. It seems they are off to a good start. On that shelf I also have the 5-page East Texas phone book.  I also have a solitary spiral notebook, one of hundreds I have bought for who knows what reason. Another pad of graph paper (what am I? A math nerd??), some cute printer paper, a purple metal ruler, an ugly pen, and an open pack of Sharpies.

Above the shelves sits my cheap DELL printer – currently out of commission since it is nearly out of black ink. It is on, but I don’t know why….no paper, no ink. Next to the printer is where the worst cordless phone EVER resides – the battery in this phone lasts all of about 20 minutes. Maybe it’s mad because it too, is covered in those dusty little rodents. In front of the printer is my newest purchase of spiral notebooks – 5 blue ones to be exact. I bought them because a book said to. No really, I’m reading a, well, two actually, books about writing a novel and one of them said – “be sure to have at least 5 notebooks – I prefer the spiral bound type,” so, of course, I ran out to get them right away. And the blue, well, it’s my favorite color. Had I gotten red, John may have thought they were his Valentine’s gift.

It seems the dust bunnies are everywhere! On my desk in front of me, I have my mouse (not related to the dust bunnies – they fight like the Hatfields and McCoys), a half-full glass of milk (always the optimist), and lots of other stuff. It’s a given that my rodent covered monitor lives here. Currently residing there are a few radical groups of rebellious staples from the untrusty stapler. These happen to be red ones. They were John’s last Valentine’s gift.

If you were here you would also notice that I have a copy of How to Write, & Sell your First Novel by Oscar Collier with Frances Spatz Leighton. (Told you I was reading.) But, there’s more…a booklet of Pass-Along Promises sits between the monitor and my book. Atop the desk are also a folded $2 bill, a hinge paper clip, 2 coasters (one holding my milk), my current month’s budget sheet (more like a doomsday report), my digital camera, a box of Aleve Cold & Sinus, a box of Tylenol Sinus, 3 debit cards (one is no longer active), a steno notebook, and a flea comb for cats.

I haven’t even begun to tell you about the keyboard tray…..


So, ummm….still want to read this blog?  LOL! 


PS – I have a new desk that my honey built for me, now!